My view on CBT was I had one shot to get things right. This was an assumption, and incorrect. However, it gave me the drive to embrace and explore the process as fully as I could. I really felt I’d been given a lifeline and I intended to grab it with both hands. 
 
It’s also a fascinating journey and more than satisfied my inner geek. 
 
During therapy I leaned that CBT isn’t a sticking plaster. CBT exists to effect lasting change and to give the patient the tools to manage any potential relapses or future flare ups. 
 
In the latter stages of the process I worked with my therapist to write a blueprint. The blueprint is effectively a message from my present self to my future self. It tells me where I started, where I ended up and how I got there. It reminds me of the techniques and gives me the confidence to tackle whatever my wayward mind throws at me. 

If I feel like I’m falling into my old ways, I can use my blueprint to get back on track. 
 
What changes has it made to me? 
 
I never really realised how much OCD was taking over my life. Now it is gone I have space to enjoy life. I can go out and not feel constantly anxious about an unlocked door or a lit gas hob. 
 
I have more time. It’s not just the removal of the checking routine. I now feel I can take time out and not feel guilty about “wasting time.” If I want to go cycling for an hour or two, I can do that. When I do my mind is clear to enjoy the day. 
 
My physical health is improving. I can take time out to exercise and take care of myself. I sleep better and eat better.  

I worry far less about things I cannot change.  
 
For me the process has not changed me, it’s allowed me to be me.